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Offically Jobless

Well as of 8am today, I am officially jobless.  I have not been without employment since I completed nursing school.  In fact, I have not been without a job since well before then.  It is a true test of my faith in the Lord to provide for me.  I can say with complete honesty, this is not a comfortable place to be.

Every time we have moved, I have been able to locate a job prior to moving.  When we transitioned to Wake Forest, we were in such good financial standing I did not need a full time job.  I didn't need any job, but I would have gone stir crazy in about 30 minutes.  When we moved to Amherst, I already had a position lined up at the hospital.  It took me some time to find that one.   Steve was coming up here on the weekends without me so I could continue to work in Charlotte.  I would drive up for interviews and drive home.  It took 4 months before something came up.  I am hoping there is not a repeat of that this time.

I will have two full weeks off before we arrive in Florida.  Our paychecks fall 2 weeks behind and I will be paid for my unused paid time off.  I am hoping between the two of those, I can get about 5 weeks out of it.  That should provide enough time to find something in the Sunshine State.  I can say with complete honesty, again, I am uncomfortable.  I know that God will provide the right place, right time and right job for me, but it is still hard putting that confidently before me.  The bible tells me to be anxious about nothing and that if He will provide for the sparrows then He will provide for me.   How easy it is to say that to someone when they are worried and how hard that is to believe when you are the one on the receiving end of the comment.

To date, God has provided well for us.  We have a roof over our head, cars to drive, and food to eat.  Steve has been given his own church and we have free housing when we get there.  My parents have offered to help if the finances get tight before I find a job.  We really should not be worried about anything.  So why is it in our nature to worry?  I think it is because we continue to believe we are in control.   The key word there is "think".  We are, in fact, not in control of our situation.  God has designed a plan and reveals each piece when we need it.  By stepping out in faith, we acknowledge His sovereignty.  My husband's favorite verse is 2 Chronicles 29:11-12, "Everything in the heavens and earth is yours, oh Lord.  We adore you as being in control of everything.  Riches and honor come from you alone and you are the ruler of all mankind.  Your hand controls power and might and it is at your discretion that men are made great and given strength."  That pretty much sums it up doesn't it.  

There is the perfect opportunity waiting for me in Florida.  I must remain faithful and trust in His design.  So for now, I am content to be officially jobless!

In His service
Mally

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